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Today started off with another Phone call.

This time my dad called. JUST to call
You will never reach new places in your journey of life if you keep the door to your heart closed.

It really is Okay to open it and experience some happiness instead of barricading it shut in fear of whats beyond the doorway.

Day 29

This morning the phone rang!!!!

I instinctively knew by sound of the voice on the answering machine on the other end without a doubt whom it was.

“This is your Dad”

We had a very what i am hoping was an honest phone call.  I could tell there was so much pain in his voice. He told me his version what really had transpired so many years ago.

I am not going to share in details that 72 minute call.

However i do want to point out that non identifying information from adoption agency’s can and does provide one with VERY detailed lies and half truths.

However i am so blessed that i was able to let him know that regardless of the circumstances I forgave him and that I loved him.

And by nothing other than Angels, Miracles, Prayers and through Autosomal DNA testing on Ancestry, have been given an opportunity and new chapters in life ahead.

I would like to ask for continued prayers.

PLEASE continue to send healing prayers.

Miracles do happen

NEVER GIVE UP
NEVER STOP BELIEVING

All In Gods Perfect Timing

I seen an angel looking weird cloud on  the 

September 25 th 2015
My mama loved angels I am told I joked to myself it was a sign from my mom, but wondered if it was sending me a message and what exactly that message was
it was there for  a few moments directly above my view while sitting outside my back door.
finally i thought i would go get a picture and went inside to get the camera, but when i came outside it was basically gone. Remnants of it faded before my eyes
 
it melted away in the sky
so i went inside and resumed my search

and hour later i mistook Cadwell for Caudhill

and this girl started messaging me

It turned out she was a post adopt worker in Calif
we chatted and i sent her my paperwork from the adoption agency i was given from LA county of adoptions, as well as access to my DNA results i had taken on ancestry. and any information i thought would be useful.
She was very busy that day but said she would talk to me later
the next day i was about to go to the store around the corner
I needed to get hygiene items so i kinda needed to drop everything and walk around the corner to the store about 15minutes away.

but the woman i spoke to the day before messaged me
said i needed to look into  the name of (withheld for privacy)
so that’s a drop everything and i didn’t go to the store
15 mins after i should have left walking to the store
in FRONT of the exact store was a random shooting
it was all over the news

http://www.pe.com/articles/shooting-781634-officers-banning.html
but i was home because I was messaged  a name she felt very strongly i should look into
she doesn’t know how she even had it come to her 

i stayed home figured i would look into the name and go to the store in a few minutes.
a whole new series of events was unfolding due to the name i had received
an AVALANCHE of events.
Since i was busy with messaging and researching and phone calls everything seemed a blur

  I was told there was a man driving around my little city randomly shooting at people. It was all over the news
i figured I am staying home then and after they catch this guy, i will go to the store.
so i went to the store late afternoon and seen crime scene tape and police everywhere and had to go behind the church thru the parking lot and out the other driveway to get to the store
all the police would say is that there was a shooting and they were waiting on forensics to get there. as i got to the store parking lot L.A. times newspaper asked me a bunch of questions.
i bought my groceries and proceeded home and a man approached me i told him what i knew and directed him to the little detour behind the church i had to take to get through to the other side of the scene.
he Then told me he was from press enterprise newspaper
as he asked me questions,

i could only think of the other events of the day.
It wasn’t until a day later i placed the series of events that had happened the last 2 days.
Coming to terms i  could have and by all accounts should have been somehow involved in the events of the day before with the shooting. would it have been me shot, shot at, would i have seen it unfold?
at that moment i realized i was not there for the simple fact i had been messaged. and due to the nature of that message i received it had altered the events of that day and i stayed home.
At most i knew there was a reason for that message at that exact time. so regardless of what was to follow, i knew it was some kind of intervention happening.
Due to the avalanche that had transpired from the new information i was messaged there was a private DNA company involved and the results ultimately came back ending now what was a 28 year search.

Finding The Needle in The Haystack

SOLVED!!

I just wanted to tell everyone that has followed me on my journey. and supported me and said hundreds of prayers and given their time exhaustively and been there to wipe the tears and hold my hand and been there no matter how small they think that they helped that i am so blessed to have taken this journey and had you with me or met you along the way that the search i believe has ended

(UPDATE: AM POSITIVE HAS ENDED)

(October 12th 2015)

  BOTH maternal and paternal sides have been found. this has been an intense 28 year journey. i will NOT disclose the identity of the paternal side at this time. it is not because i have decided to remain a secret but more so as i can only imagine the roller coaster they have been given.

I am choosing to allow them time to grasp their emotions. this cant be an easy time so i am asking for continued prayers of strength and understanding and healing for them.

i do thank you all far and wide for everything and am blessed to have each of you in my life.

another reason i am posting this is to give hope to others still in their searches to never ever ever give up

I can finally stop looking and wondering for i I have swam hundreds of oceans, climbed many many mountains. Fought with dozens of demons and prayed my soul and heart out and met and danced with many Angels . i may not be where i need to be but happy i am not where i was. Amazing things happen when you believe

My brother told me to just be the most amazing daughter he could ever wish for, but baby bro i don’t know how to be that, i just an going to be myself because that’s the only way i know to be
i love you all and thank you for everything. and please say a prayer for the Paternal side that they may be given blessings of peace and comfort during a time of need. love you all .

if you are searching

NEVER GIVE UP